I will be on the 6pm news
they will use my graduation photo from 2018,
bronze smile, soft sides, hues in my eyes
that’s how my mother would like to remember me
full of tenacity, beaming of hope, ready for life.
They will use a recent picture of me
and I will look like two completely different men;
to the ordinary eye, I will look like my killer,
but he will eat dinner with his wife and kids tonight.
The news reporter will take care to say my full name,
they will fetishise my day job, and the heroism
that comes with it. I will be reduced to my capitalist service.
They will interview my students, colleagues, friends, family
they will all say pretty things about me.
Beforeallthatbullshit,
I will drown in a pool of myself,
my killer couldn’t take that I didn’t want to see him anymore.
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